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|Thursday, August 10th, 2006|
|tonite I dine on turtle soup
I haven't written on here in over a month and I dont think I will continue to write here again. For personal reasons. For those few friends I made in live journal So long farewell, some ryming german words, goodnite....
no but seriously for those of you I never met (which is most of you) I wish you the best. Real life calls, I took too long a hiatus from being me, but now Im back, I missed me. ANyway I dont like to leave things not finished so here is my final entry about my life... (feel free to comment, I will check responses, there just wont be anymore entries here)....
ok here it goes....
This is hard.... ok the best ending to anything...
....And he lived happily ever after!
|Monday, June 5th, 2006|
|the stars at night are big and bright...
So now I'm in San Antonio. I wonder why did I ever leave this place to go to Utah? Lapse in judgment is the only explanation (well it could also have been temporary insanity or maybe demonic possesion); however Im back and all is good. What I love best about San Antonio is the lack of Utah like characteristics. I'm gorgeous my skin isen't dry all the time, life is good and I like it. Its like waking up for a very very bad nightmare.
Anyway the Semi Regular Sushi review will be replaced with the Semi Regular Riverwalk review, really raw fish, thats so gross, what was I thinking? Give me Tex Mex cooking over japanese uncooked fish with seaweed and rice anyday. There are japanese dishes that have a 1 in 80 chance of being lethat, in tex mex cusine there is no food known to kill you. (some dishes however will leave you panting and wanting water). So yes now Im back home, yeeeeeeeeeha!
Now to find a job (and get someone to send me flowers)... Current Mood: ecstatic
|Thursday, May 25th, 2006|
|Two days to go
Two days to go, then Im out of Utah forever. (hopefully forever) If I dont see a Mormon again in my life, all will be well. I can rant and rave but it doesnt matter...
The stars at night are big and bright (clap clap clap clap) deep in the heart of texas! Current Mood: anxious
|Monday, May 15th, 2006|
I just got back from a ministry concert, their 2006 Masturbatour. I was awesome. The energy you could feel was totatly tangible, and people all over, it was like being adrift in a sea of bodies and music. Jayke had wanted me to go to this for a very very long time, because he knew I liked a couple minsitry songs. Hearing the music live was a completely different experience. I am a better person because of a Minsitry concert.
One of their opening bands, the revolting cocks, did a cover of Rod Stewart's "Do you think Im sexy" which was out of this world, of course I got to sing along with the audience. Well one last nice memory in Utah... Current Mood: contemplative
|Friday, May 12th, 2006|
|Singing in the shower
I just got out of the shower, halfway through my cleansing I caught myself singing the Ode to Joy (Beethoven's 9th Choral suite) replacing all the words with Texas over and over again. "Texas texas texas texas texas texas texas tex, texas texas texas texas texas texas texas tex, texas texas, texas texas, texas texas texas tex..." well you get the idea. Funny things I hand't sang in the shower for a very very long time...
|So the story goes...
Some time ago, I made a very stupid mistake I put in an application to go to a University in a littel redneck mountain town called Logan Utah. I got accepted got a scholarship got on a place and left the warm sunny land of my childhood to come to republican infested mormon controlled arid as the warmest part of Mercury state called Utah. While here several things that had never ever happened before occured. I got raped; I fell in love with a pedophile and had a very long relationship whith him (which kept me in this state twice when I could have left); I had my boyfriend go to jail for being a pedophile (in his defense the person he was accused of molesting was a teengaer at the time and actually was the one who initiated the sexual liason); I spent my life savings to that point on a person in jail and went into debt for said person more than I cared to have done; I developed allergies; I had two major surgeries; I gained about 35 lbs; my father died; I got dumped by the afore mentioned pedophile because I caught HIM cheating on me; I fell in love again with someone who for personal reasons can't claim me as his own, I got fired. Yes as one can see Utah is the nexus of misery. So I've made up my mind, and for those of you in Utah, all I have to do is say good luck and good riddance. I'm moving to texas baby, and never ever ever ever ever ever will I return to this wasteland again (I will return the favor tho and write my texas congresspeople and say they should vote for anything that puts chemical or toxic waste from another state into this one, it's the least I can do, they love green jello here, maybe they would like it better if it glowed). Funny thing is I made this decition about two days ago, and told myself, "Baby, you will only stay in Utah if you get the management position you interviewd for on monday and if it pays what you need it to pay." So what happens today before 9:30 I get three phone calls from people who could have called weks ago asking me to come in for interviews. I respectfully declined them all. Only three things can keep me here now, and of those three only one is even remotely probable. The first thing that would keep me here is if Dial America gave me a position and offered me at least 30,000 a year. For person reasons we will not go into the second thing, it involves a man (the only decent gay man in this state) and he is the only one who needs to know. The third thing would be is if a divine manifestation materialized in front of me and with the voice of Zeus or one of His said to me "Oliver you will not go to Texas." So far neither of those three things have happened and since the first is the most probable as of monday Im going to start packing and shipping my books and DVD's.
San Antonio, oh it puts a smile on my face. Last time I was in San Antonio, I lost about 20 lbs, I feel in love (twice)(and broke two hearts instead of having it be the other way around), I fooled around in a boiler room at Ft Sam Houston, I kissed a girl, and I had a three squad back up called on me and my friends ('cause we were nude doing wiccan ritual on a full moon, who knew we were on pvt property)(Baptist police officers freak easily at the sight of naked witches wearing only pentagrams and carrying daggers). I can't think of a more fun, more alive city I would go to... So GOOBYE UTAH and GOOD RIDDANCE (enjoy my toxic, nuclear waste) Current Mood: cheerful
|Wednesday, May 10th, 2006|
Big Nathan took me up a hike today. It was quite fun, up millcreek canyon, I was really happy for a moment up there on the mountain, there is still snow up there. I forgot how much I do enjoy hiking, but now I'm back in Salt Lake Valley and lonely and single again. "Wont anybody find me, somebody to love?"
|Saturday, May 6th, 2006|
Well I hope everyone had a happy and drunken cinco de mayo.
|Tuesday, April 25th, 2006|
|HELP ME IF YOU CAN IM FEELING DOWN!
Ok if youre on my buddy list help me out here. I dont have a journal entry but I would really like one. So can you guys please put one toghether for me? Current Mood: busy
|Sunday, April 23rd, 2006|
It really sucks being a collectivist in a society of individualist. I dont understand why people think individuality is so great. Do they not know one is the worst possible thing to be? Just venting here but why should I feel bad about wanting to define myself as part of a "we"? Honestly people, Being single sucks, will always suck and thats why dying alone is one of the worst things that can happen to anyone.
Enough venting about that. No to vent about men, and how stupid they can be...
Noone has ever bought me flowers or Jewlery (well Dana gave me one of his rings, and Jared tried to get me jewlery, but he mest up pretty bad). Dana, Buck, Jared, Matt... four boyfriends, no flowers (and those are just the boyfriends that count; there are others, but you would think someone would have gotten me flowers by now). Honestly what is wrong with Americans. My romantic intrest last christmas bought me a digital camera, I appreciate the fact he got me that, but Im a techno idiot. I know how to use ONE SETTING. What do I Need a four megapixel camera for? With the money he spent on the camera he could have gotten me one dozen roses and a gold ring. That I could use! He could have kept the camera for himself and taken a picture of me smiling. Which I could have posted to LJ (actually I dont know how to post pictures or links to other people's journals but an LJ friend said he would help me learn). Anyone someone said treat people as you want to be treated and things will come back your way, well I've given flowers to my exes, and to people Im intrested in, I even planted someone a bulb garden (and a rose garden, and gave a friend some potted plants, and I gave a girl a tulip on St Valentines day so she would hvae something) Well life, where are my flowers? When will FTD knock on my door to deliver a bouquet of roses from someone who loves me and wants to fuck my brains out? Makes me want to yell, PEOPLE GO GET YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER FLOWERS ALREADY. Maybe if I can get everyone to do it by sheer mathematics alone the FTD man will mess up and deliver some to me. Wouldnt that be nice, I think I would even cry even if they weren't meant for me. I want flowers before I die. (I dont get why people send them to funerals, I mean the dearly departed dont care, he's too busy choosing his next incarnation, while Im still alive and waiting for flowers that never come).
So now as I sit up lonely at 5:20 am (there is NOTHING in my bed to entice me to crawl in it, Im just going to be equaly lonely if i sleep on the couch or on this chair) I wonder, why cant I find someone who will fall in love with me, and not stay in love with their exes (or themselves) and just use me as a crutch? Is it bad to want to be giddy and giggly and touchy feely with someone who is nuts about you? It's been said that once Hera offered a mortal anything he asked for, and he asked for the best thing a god could give to a mortal, so Hera granted him death while he slept, maybe I will be so lucky. Because if Im going to be alone, (and without flowers) what the hell is the point in living? Current Mood: lonely
|She has a smile
that it seems to me reminds me of childhood memories when everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky. Now and then when I see her face it takes me away to that special place and if I stare too long I'd probably break down and cry...
|Friday, April 21st, 2006|
Saw a T sirt today that said "An awkward morning beats a boring night" That shirt is so true...
So I pray ad its a prayer we can all pray:
God and Goddess
thank you for all you have given me,
thank you for the leasons I learned even the ones that made me cry, but more so the ones where I didn't cry.
thank you for the smiles I smiled and the smiles I've caused,
and most of all thank you for helping me make it this far
Thank you for the flowers.
I pray to always have your help and guidance.
I pray to help me be recepetive to love and for you to send love my way.
I ask you help me find a job that will help me make a difference for the world.
and I ask you guide me to live my life in a way that will bring happiness and joy to all living creatures here on earth. Please don't leave me, and no matter how misguided I am, please let me know you care about me. Thank you for this day, and please make tomorrow wonderful.
(but if you say the prayer add at the end, and "I ask for all these things for Oliver as well") Current Mood: grateful
|Sushi Sushi Sushi
Happy Sumo again
1. Mojo roll, delicious yellow tail roll garnished with fish eggs, superb
2. Jazz Roll, delicious tuna roll garnished with sashimi, it was ok, bland tho, not very spicy at least the Mojo roll fish eggs burst in your mouth. The mojo roll required much soy sauce and ginger for flavor.
3. Big Sumo Roll - this roll has everything, it was tasty but rather large and too busy on the pallate....
|Tuesday, April 18th, 2006|
Sometimes I think the outlets for my artistic expression are too limited. I would like to take an art class (drawing) but Im broke... Darn.
Also I need to purchase a turban, something forest green with a large lapiz lazuli cabochon and green matching robes to match. Just putting my thought out there.
All filed! Hopefully I will get a refund check from the state, if they dont take out my unpaid parking ticketsfrom my refund. which they might...
I seriously need to move to a state where there is no state incometax. My ideal job would be as a writer for a fashion catalogue. I can think of tons of exotic words to describe a ratty pair of jeans made in the midwest. Alas, no jobs like that here in slc.
|Sunday, April 16th, 2006|
Now I wonder if Calysto has a crush on me, cause I do have one on him.
NO job yet, and as of next week officially out of money. I have this beautiful Anthropology BA that has never been used and no job. Sigh... Roll with the punches right? Right, what else can I do.
Oh well lets hope the Gods help me out.
The week was very intresting. I was kind of sad to discovere Brokeback Mountain was such a shitty movie. It seemed like a very slow movie about closeted white cowboy culture as filtered through and asian's directors eyes. ANd it wasent even entertaining, sad to think people will think of it as the definitive gay movie of 2005 (I think that honor should go to RENT, which has a more uplifting positive portrayal of Gayness than Brokeback). The acting was not bad, the story was just not well written, and it was definetly written by someone out of contact with gay culture or feelings or dynamics. Someone said "but it has beautiful scenery" well so do postacrds, and you don't see them getting Oscar nominations. The scenery was just plain Blah, nothing spectacular, and definetly nothing to be nominated for an oscar. Its easy to see why it didn't win, and in my opinion Ang Lee did not deserve an oscar for directing it, the movie just plained sucked. With so many great gay movies why did this particular one have to get all the press?
I'm just ranting now it seems... Happy Easter all, merry Ostara ALL, and to our friends in the southern hemisphere, happy Autumn. Current Mood: worried
|Sunday, April 9th, 2006|
|Oliver's Semi Regular Sushi review
As most people who know me well will tell you, Oliver has nothing but contempt for Japanese culture. Which is true, (notice the word culture after Japanese, I have no beef with the people, eccept of course Yoko Ono who is the embodiment of the corruption of art everywhere, and an example that even geniuses like Lennon can make stupid mistakes) however I do enjoy eating sushi (with chopsticks even, which are I'm glad to say Chineese, not Japanese).
So I've decided for lack of something better to write I would provide a review of Shushi Bars I go to and the rolls I try (I would try sashimi, but thats just a little more barbaric than I like to get)
The reviewed restaurant tonite is Happy Summo (located in Beautiful, yet cult controlled, Salt Lake City Utah, Gateway Shopping center for dinner it would be best to make a reservation)
1. Suft and Turf - this roll was bland and boring, its got fish and steak (I dont eat beef, but my friend never told me it had beef till I had eaten one and mentioned it tasted funny). Honestly even if it didint have steak the roll was blah. Thank the Gods for Wasabe and Ginger, because most people like a little flavor when something enters their mouth.
2. Venus - I had to try this classic roll as an honor to the Goddess for whom it was named. the roll was prepared tempura style. I think they roll it, then they fry it, then they slice it. It was delightful. Not very spicy tho, and I did use some ginger on a couple of pieces. Mostly fish lobster rice and seaweed, I would eat this again
3. Death - this was my favorite roll for a long time, no fish, but tempura soft shell crabs and lots of spices (and rice and seaweed) very very good, but I could never eat the end pieces cause they have the crab claws sticking out and it kinda freaks me out. This roll has always been something that I order be at Happy Summo or Ichiban
4 Baja Roll - this is now my most favorite roll, fish and crab, rice with cilantro and avocado and just a hint of raw jalapeño. Oh this roll was delicious, I would say to die for, but I know Blowfish is illegal in this state. If you like sushi rolls and you like spicy this roll wins.
5. Edemame - Happy Sumo's edemame was either not fresh, or from a sickly plant, they oversalted the beans and they werent as crisp tasting as I like, still they did cleanse the palate between rolls.
My overall impression of Happy Sumo, yes I would recommend it to anyone and I would go there again.
|Friday, April 7th, 2006|
|Just goes to show you never know...
Does anyone remember Moby the singer? Yeah well in his Hotel CD, he did a cover of Temptation (originaly done by New Order, but I could be mistaken). So as I sat home decided I'm not going to date anymore, this song starts playing on my iTunes; I hadn't heard it in such a long time, but it really hit home. I forgot how beautiful the song was, and it even gave me a little melancholy hope. Anyway I felt something because of the song and decided to post just in case anyone cares. Current Mood: melancholy
|Thursday, March 30th, 2006|
I find it very annyoning when people online say "I would really like to meet you" when in fact what they mean is "I really want to fuck you". Most of the people who ever say that are flakes and they would get in my pants faster if they said what they really meant instead of making all sugar coated and fluffy, little do they realize Im mostly a top, and I would be doing the fucking if they did get into my pants. Current Mood: annoyed